I believe God wants what is best for us, God cares about each of us individually, and He has a good plan for us. Over the past year, my spiritual journey had its ups and downs and at times, doubt would creep in my mind here and there to the point where I found it hard to believe I had written a blog called, “God is always good.” I would think to myself: “I know He is good, but the world isn’t. How can I trust Him when I experience things that are not good?” My questioning led to a path of searching for answers from people and books, but most of those times, they would leave me feeling half full–I still could not trust the answers from a fallen world. I don’t have all the answers to my questions, to the suffering around me, my searching heart. I may […]
Gifts of Goodness
For the month of December, I have been reading through the gospel of Luke which details Jesus’ life. Throughout this time, I have been meditating on Jesus’ character, trying to pick out ways that I can be more like him. The following moment most recently struck me:
The Deep Hurt
It is there when all other feelings are muted. It is an ache that turns deep in one’s heart. It is heartbrokenness that cuts deep like a sword. It may last hours into the night, walk with you for days on end, or hit you for a brief moment. That is what I call that feeling– the deep hurt. Maybe you’ve experienced it and have your own name for it, maybe you have yet to experience it. Maybe it was caused by circumstances out of your control like deep disappointment or betrayal, or an experience like a family member or friend passing away, a phone call with heartbreaking news.
Pass Me Not, O Gentle Savior
Here is a hymn that is cherished in my heart. It is written from a singer’s perspective, knowing there is nothing we can do to save ourselves, only Jesus’ grace can give us hope, strengthen our unbelief, comfort us, and heal our hearts when they are broken. I sing this song to myself when times like these arise–sometimes it is hard to find words to pray, but I can repeat this hymn as words in my heart.
Infinite Chances
I’ve heard it said that God is a God of second chances. If God gave me a second chance every time I made a mistake, I would be out of second chances. So I disagree. He is a God of infinite chances.
Choosing to Forgive
My church was covering the Beatitudes for a few months; each week, they would highlight one line from each beatitude. In the week leading up to the verse, “Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy,” I was faced with a situation where I did not show mercy.
God is Always Good
“God is good.” This is a phrase we say and hear regularly, and it’s true, but usually only used when things are going well in a person’s life. However, when we say, “God is being so good to me right now” “God has been good to me” “In this season of my life, God is good” …there’s an emphasis on the situation that God is good at certain times, not always.
Throwback Hymns Thursday
A hymn that has been on repeat over and over again in my head/heart for the past few months has been, “Just As I Am” by Charlotte Elliott.
Stop daydreaming and start praying!
I am a daydreamer. I daydream all the time—in the car, as I am about to fall asleep, as I clean, and, admittedly, in mid-conversation.
The Questions to Ask Yourself
Many times in my life I have had someone look back at me and say, “Are you coming?” I tend to stay back and watch different events in life unfold. But this repeated phrase has often come in my direction as cold waves crashed around me while I’d slowly wade into the ocean. The water often cold; I would wish to stay in that spot or retreat backwards to shore — content to watch from a distance out of an inner fear of the ocean itself. Instead of putting those fears aside and joining my family or friends and building on our memories together, I would miss out on those precious times.